After wrapping up my Masters degree here in Australia, I decided to take a well-deserved vacation. I was having the time of my life, tending to the needs of my family and availing of every possible opportunity to serve God. During this time, I was fortunate to have been instituted as an Acolyte and be appointed as a Cooperator for Opus Dei. Although I know now how stressful and tiring being a full-time father is, I have to say that I was contented.
For almost 6 months I endeavoured to be the best father and husband possible, placing myself at the disposal of my wife and 3 children. I was (and still am) able to hear mass almost everyday, and have ample time to spend in prayer. While on 'vacation', I constantly prayed to God and tried my best to discern what He wanted of me. I did something, which I never thought I would ever do - I offered my life to Him in service.
But as my discernment stage came to an end, it seemed like God was pointing me elsewhere. Hence, on the birthday of my eldest daughter (May 5), I started my job search.
Looking for a job can be one of the most humbling experiences anyone can ever go through. After submitting in excess of 100 applications to date, I have already received a countless number of rejection letters. However, I was fortunate enough to be given 3 face-to-face interviews and 3 phone interviews thus far. I have also been shortlisted twice into the top 3 candidates.
But regardless of whatever progress is made, it doesn't seem to make it any easier. I particularly felt a bit dejected yesterday, upon hearing that I missed the final cut for one of my applications.
I know that in my 'limited' vision, I can only see what is in front of me. And naturally, whatever I see is what I want. I came so close, but I guess this was not yet the job for me.
Once again, God granted me consolation today at mass. He reminded me today that He has a plan for me, and to just trust in Him. I know that it is going to be hard, but I will just continue to remain faithful to our Lord. He knows what is best for me, and I will submit myself to His will.
