Wednesday, March 30, 2011

30 March 2011 Prayer

Lord God, in all humility, I claim your promise that YOU will allow me to enter in and take possession of the land that YOU are giving to me. Only YOU can allow this to happen.


I dedicate my entire life to YOU - and I ask that YOU may never let me go. Grant me the grace to obey all of your commandments. May I be pleasing to YOU and remain so for the rest of my life.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Shattered

Not even 24 hours after I wrote about "The Wall", God has shattered it for me. I cannot believe how fast He took away what felt like such a heavy load. One simple explanation from God, as I heard His voice when I attended the anticipated Saturday mass last week: "Satan is confounding you, because you will be my Minister." With those words, I immediately understood everything, and my entire yolk was lifted. I cannot express the happiness, exhilaration, and love that I feel for God right now. I feel as if I am going to burst!
 
Every single day since then, I can literally feel my heart beating for God. My prayer life is at a whole new level. I can't stop talking to God. I cannot stop thanking Him for every single thing that He has given to me. Thank you my Lord. I love you so much.

Friday, March 4, 2011

The Wall

Marathon runners talk about "The Wall". I haven't experienced it as I have yet to run my first marathon. But they say it feels like an anchor weighing you down. This is the closest description I can think of in expressing how my prayer life feels right now. I have tried different things, different methods, different times, different places. Nothing seems to be working.

The thing is, I know what the problem is. And hard as it may be to admit, it has to do with my inability to give up everything for Him. Why is it that it is easy to say that God is the most important thing that matters, yet many other things still do matter?

Runners get through "The Wall" eventually either through their training or their own strength of will. But my spiritual wall can only be overcome by God's grace and mercy. I cannot do this on my own.